You Will Know The Truth…

1 Protect me, God, for I take refuge in You.
2 I said to the LORD, “You are my Lord;
I have no good besides You.”
3 As for the holy people who are in the land,
they are the noble ones in whom is all my delight.
4 The sorrows of those who take another [god]
for themselves multiply;
I will not pour out their drink offerings of blood,
and I will not speak their names with my lips.
5 LORD, You are my portion
and my cup [of blessing];
You hold my future.
6 The boundary lines have fallen for me
in pleasant places;
indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.
7 I will praise the LORD who counsels me —
even at night my conscience instructs me.
8 I keep the LORD in mind always.
Because He is at my right hand,
I will not be shaken.
9 Therefore my heart is glad,
and my spirit rejoices;
my body also rests securely.
10 For You will not abandon me to Sheol;
You will not allow Your Faithful One to see the Pit.
11 You reveal the path of life to me;
in Your presence is abundant joy;
in Your right hand are eternal pleasures.

The Definition of Confidence

1. full trust; belief in the powers, trustworthiness, or reliability of a person or thing: We have every confidence in their ability to succeed.
2. belief in oneself and one’s powers or abilities; self-confidence; self-reliance; assurance: His lack of confidence defeated him.
3. certitude; assurance: He described the situation with such confidence that the audience believed him completely.

I believe that Father leads me to explore the meaning of the word confidence in the Word, because it’s something I am lacking an understanding in. I feel that Father is helping me to more fully understand faith, trust and now confidence in Her, which all seem to fit together perfectly.

As I study the different definitions of confidence one stands out to me due to the example that is given of it being used in a sentence. “His lack of confidence defeated him”. I am now certain, that Father would like for me to reason out the importance of confidence and how it can be used to bring Her glory in my service to Her.

Philippians 3:3-5 For we are the circumcision, the ones who serve by the Spirit of God, boast in Christ Jesus, and do not put confidence in the flesh— 4 although I once had confidence in the flesh too. If anyone else thinks he has grounds for confidence in the flesh, I have more: 5 circumcised the eighth day; of the nation of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, a Hebrew born of Hebrews; as to the law, a Pharisee;

In reading the above scripture, I see that we are told that in serving Father we do not put confidence in the flesh. Perhaps this speaks of a certain boldness, or pride in oneself. Because the flesh is sinful, I think it best to not place confidence in oneself, but instead to place all confidence in Father who is infallible. Confidence in oneself could also lead to leaning on one’s own understanding and being misled into believing that which is not truth. We see this evident then, in those who did not believe that Christ Jesus was the son of God in the same way as we see it today in these End Times. We also see it evident in the many people who believe that once saved is always saved and who have so much confidence in their own salvation that they do not realize that it is something that must be attained via diligence and endurance.

Proverbs 3:25-27 Don’t fear sudden danger or the ruin of the wicked when it comes, for the LORD will be your confidence and will keep your foot from a snare.

When Father is our confidence, it is She that keeps our foot from a snare because we are leaning on Her in full faith and trust of her abilities and righteousness. To lean on oneself would be counter productive, as being of the flesh we can be easily misled via our own sinful natures.

Isaiah 29:16 You turn things upside down, as if the potter were thought to be like the clay! Shall what is formed say to him who formed it, “He did not make me”? Can the pot say of the potter, “He knows nothing”?

Additionally, the clay cannot have confidence in itself in being able to withstand the heat it is fired in, or in its own ability to hold water. It must have confidence in the potter, to know what temperature it should be kilned and how it should be properly molded in order to contain the water poured in it without breaking. The clay must instead have confidence in the potter, who is far more knowledgeable.

2 Corinthians 8:22 We have also sent with them our brother whom we have often tested, in many circumstances, and found diligent—and now even more diligent because of his great confidence in you.

Each day we are each tested. I have been and continue to be tested. I understand that it must occur and that it is one of many ways in which to learn and grow in Father. I know that there is a reason behind all testing that goes on. And while I fear many times that I have done wrong, so wrong that I’ve lost all chances of obtaining salvation, I also feel a voice within my heart that says that rather than being filled with fear, I should instead place my full faith, trust and confidence in Father. Because I am imperfect and still of the sinful flesh I stumble daily. And daily, sometimes several times a day depending on the sort of day I’m having, I ask Father for forgiveness because I feel so deeply how far from the mark I am. Then, the next day I get up, aided by Her Spirit, and continue to move forward the best way I know how. I am not confident in myself at all, but I now more fully understand how important it is to have full confidence in Father.

Psalm 3

3 But You, LORD, are a shield around me,
my glory, and the One who lifts up my head.

There are many who attack me. Who want to see me fall away. Who play mind games and attempt to shatter my morale and cause me to lose faith and trust in Father. But it will not work. Rather, I am urged to study and dig deeper within the Word and to write about what I’m feeling and what I discover. Through this medium I am able to see the words that lift me up as I am instructed in knowledge, obtaining a greater understanding and finally wisdom.

My faith, my trust, my confidence is in Father and not in myself and while I may be weak, She is strong. Though I am made confident by Her and through Her. She is my shield around me, my glory and the One who lifts up my head. The One who loves me despite my many flaws. The One who forgives my sins because I am confident also in the grace I am under and the sacrifice Her son made for us all. Through him and only him am I forgiven.

There is a lot that I do not understand. I do not know what lies around the corner – only that there is a plan. I do not know the incredible depths of Father’s plan – only that it’s incredible. I cannot fully conceive of the enormity of Her love and wisdom – I can only imagine.

I find myself at a time in my life in which total trust and total surrender to our Father Yahweh is at the same time the strength that will get me through. This strength is not my own. It is borne from the wisdom, understanding, counsel, knowledge and strength that is Hers and can only come from Her.

As for fear… well, fear and I go back several years now. It hasn’t felt like a constant fear, but it’s been there and I’m pretty sure that it’s been used against me in the Spiritual War as well. I was called upon by Father to perform the single most important task of my entire life which is to serve Her and Her son Christ Jesus. It’s a blessing of such magnitude that I cannot put it into words. My fears stemmed from having felt the pain associated with having been a disappointment more than once and wanting to please Father and Christ. It was from this point on that I began to feel fear. I’ve been afraid of my own weaknesses. Afraid of my own ignorance. Afraid of making bad choices. Afraid that my best wasn’t good enough. In a nutshell I’ve been afraid of myself and my own sinful nature and of loosing the gift of eternal life. But over and above all this, I’ve been afraid of failing Father and Christ.

I looked up the definitions of trust and surrender and in part, trust is defined as reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence. And, surrender is defined as to give oneself up, as into the power of another; submit or yield.

In Biblical times, it was Father’s will that the Israelites give up offerings to Her. These were material things. It occurs to me now though as I ponder the stirrings within my heart and mind, that it really isn’t about material things because all things already belong to Her. The Israelites were simply giving back to Father what was already Hers and that She had in turn given them.

I feel that it’s more about giving ourselves up to Her. It’s about trust and surrender. It’s about knowing that if I seek Father, She will not abandon me. It’s about knowing in my heart, that in seeking Her I truly have done the very best that I can and fully trusting Father with every fiber of my being. It’s about putting Her will before even my own will to live. It’s all intertwined and just a single, small glimpse into Father’s wisdom. And there’s much, much more…

Psalm 9:10 Those who know Your name trust in You because You have not abandoned those who seek You, LORD.

Father has spoken to my heart tonight. She has told me that despite my ignorance, my bad choices, my sinful nature… She has not abandoned me. What I need to remember, is that in seeking Her I must also trust her completely. And the time in which I need to do this most of all, is when I’m afraid.

Psalm 56:3 When I am afraid, I will trust in You.

In doing the best I can do, in seeking Her and trusting Her with my very eternal life, in giving myself up to Her, then Her will becomes most important and the fear is erased. Then and only then am I strong because this is when She becomes my source of strength. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Many of the adults you knew as family, friends or acquaintances are gone as well – only not in the same numbers as the children.

It does not appear to be the rapture, as their bodies have been left behind and have not disappeared leaving a pile of clothes as popular Christian theories or books have claimed.

But it is.

Amidst all of this, in the sky appear millions of aircrafts that are “UFO” in nature. The government tells you that it’s an alien invasion.

There is chaos in the streets. Your own neighbors are now raping, pillaging and killing one another for food and water.

Armageddon has begun and you’re one of the one’s left behind.

How do you feel? What are you thinking? What do you do?

As has been prophesied, do you curse God for what has befallen you?

Isaiah 8:21They will wander through the land, dejected and hungry. When they are famished, they will become enraged, and, looking upward, will curse their king and their God.

Don’t. Because: Exodus 21:17 “Whoever curses his father or his mother must be put to death.“

You still may have a chance, if only you humble yourself.

Proverbs 3:33-34 The LORD’s curse is on the household of the wicked but He blesses the home of the righteous; He mocks those who mock, but gives grace to the humble.

A second rapture may take place, but it is not guaranteed. If it does occur, it will happen soon after the first rapture but it is dependent on whether or not humble hearts are found.

Zephaniah 2:2, 3 “before the decree takes effect and the day passes like chaff, before the burning of the LORD’s anger overtakes you, before the day of the LORD’s anger overtakes you. Seek the LORD, all you humble of the earth, who carry out what He commands. Seek righteousness, seek humility; perhaps you will be concealed on the day of the LORD’s anger.”